Our baby girls turned one today… Hard to believe it’s been a whole year since she entered the world…. a 12 full months that we’ve been a family of four… 365 days since I gave birth to her as my hubby delivered her. Thinking back to that day, when we finally saw her beautiful face for the first time, it seems like just yesterday… and at the same time, it feels like she’s been a part of our lives for years.
In many ways, a baby’s first birthday is more of a celebration for mom. It’s a huge milestone! Like, you did it mom! You survived the first year of sleepless nights, nursing round the clock, changing endless diapers, calming tears & tantrums – from baby and yourself lol! Baby’s first birthday is mama’s birthday too.
I think the first year is the hardest! With my son, I suffered from postpartum depression and struggled to re-find myself – Elyse, not just mom. This time around, I didn’t have the depression. I think part of the reason is that I took my placenta in pill form – like a vitamin made from me, for me. Weird? Yes! Works? Yes! Research it!!! One of the best choices I made. I also had an all-natural birth… not even a Tylenol. Someone said that a natural birth is like the hardest workout you’ll ever get to do… so I had to take on the challenge – haha.
The birth experience was amazing… but my body didn’t bounce back as fast this time, which has been frustrating! I had ab separation (diastasis recti)… and there’s still a gap between the left and right side about an inch wide. This makes it hard to get rid of the “pooch” look because organs and tissue literally poke through the gap. So I know it’s not fat, but it makes me feel self conscious. I think all moms go through that… Let’s be honest, all women have a bit of insecurities about our bodies, right?!
What I’ve learned is to do what I can to make myself feel better, and let the rest go. I workout most days of the week and eat a clean diet. These two elements make me feel strong, driven and sane 😉 And when I look at my babies, there’s no doubt they are worth every pooch, pudge, stretch and ache!
So on this 1 year birthday… I of course celebrate my sweet baby girl & my family of four… but I’m also celebrating how far I have come. Not my insecurities, but my successes and my love for my babies that’s stronger than any love I knew possible.